"Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be, will end up good; what is not, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times people need to fight for you. If they don’t you must just move on and realize that what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully people realize great things when then come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for."
Through out the past few weeks all I could do is think about moving on, but having to leave a part of me with someone else. Then my best friend of many years wrote this quote on my facebook wall. It sounds dumb but it made me cry. I am trying to be a mature adult and leave behind a relationship that his impacted me in such a major way that I don't really think I even knew what I was up against when it came to leaving it behind. This really hit home. I can't try to maintain anything alone. I have to find someone willing to fight just as hard for me as I am for them. I know that everyone has said it probably 150 times in the last few weeks, but for some reason hearing it in the words of someone that had probably been through it and had found a way out made all the difference in the world.
I am surrounded everyday by loving wonderful people who want nothing more than for me to live a life that fulfills me and for so long I haven't been able to see the dream that they have for me because my dreams have always been to fulfill those around me and enrich their lives in a way that makes all their dreams come true. Now I realize I get to live the rest of my life the way I want. They way that I had always hoped. Meet the man that loves me so unconditionally that it would kill them for anyone to hurt me. I will meet the person who loves me just as big and just as hard as I love them.
This all sounds very depressing I know, but to me it is not sad it is hopeful. I guess I realize that their is a whole big world out there and I am someone who can now go out and find my place in it. And I think that is about as exciting as it gets.
Hello my little sister! So proud of you for realizing something it takes people years and years to discover. You can't make anyone else happy until you make yourself happy. So get out there and get happy! As for the hobbies...crafting? cooking (as in, helping me complete the family cookbook)? hiking? zumba? ceramics? antiqing?
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