Why does the weekend end?

This weekend was a ton of unexpected fun. At one minute Jacob and I were joking about him coming to Auburn and then a few hours later here he was. I was so glad that he got to come, I have really missed spending time together like we used to. He is one of the only people that will just tell me things as he sees them and a majority of the time he is right. I felt bad because we didn't do anything overly exciting, but I don't do many overly exciting things. We went to the pool which was fun, but I burnt my face which will peel and look gross, but I am glad that I got some sun before the fourth so maybe I won't get burnt to a crisp on the lake.



Laura and I tie dyed on Saturday which is one of those things that I love. For some reason I like it and I don't know why. I think its because you try your hardest to make it look pretty but you really have no idea how it will turn out until you open it up the next day. So no matter how hard you try it is going to look the way it wants not always how you want. My cover up turned out pretty good, but the t-shirt turned out black haha. That is ok though because really I just wanted it so I could sleep in it. Here is a picture of the cover up.
I am really looking forward to July. I can just tell that its going to be the best month of my summer. I think that is mostly because I will spending a large amount of time with out any cell phone coverage.
Melissa put a picture of a rainbow on facebook today and tagged me in it. It was beautiful. God shows up and you don't even see it coming sometimes. I read the story of Rahab yesterday at work in Lineage of Grace. I had always heard to blanket statement that she was a harlot who did great things for God, but by reading her story for myself I thought what is must be like to have faith like that. Have faith in someone that you don't even know that much about. Faith enough to leave your family. It inspired me. I want to have the faith of Rahab and Tamar, women who had no idea what they were getting themselves into by believing in God but chose to have faith in him anyway. That is going to be my challenge daily, to have faith and no that whatever happens to me it is in God's will.

Today Was One of the Good Ones

Today was overall a very exciting day. I woke up this morning around 8, due to the return of my nightmares, and prepared to order football tickets online for the first time since freshman year. I wasn't worried about getting tickets, just getting a ticket for the iron bowl, but no worries I got them.

Next I headed to get my license renewed, finally I have a horizontal one. That isn't very exciting but oh well.

After that I headed to the grand opening of Earth Fare. I wish I had a ton of money so that I could buy all of my groceries in there. It was very exciting but also very over whelming.

I then came home and decided I wanted to bake so I got my baking cookbook out and began searching and found a recipe for Angel Food cake.

I then went to Keisel with Wynn and we just walked and talked for a long time. It was really nice, I am going to miss him a lot when he graduates in August. I am going to miss all my friends when they graduate.

I then came home and made a decision to go to publix to buy the stuff to make dinner and bake my cake. Then all the roomies watched so you think you can dance. A very normal day, but also very fun.

Here is the cake:

Rainbows

So, a long while ago when I was having a life crisis I was talking to a friend who told me he prayed for rainbows as a way to know that the Lord hears you. So lately I have really been praying hard for one rainbow. I know that my prayer is up to me, but aren't things easier when you know that everything is going as God intended? Well I have been praying relentlessly that God will heal my heart and just help me know that this is what is best and so that I can begin to believe what everyone says. So the praying and searching for rainbows haven't turned much up, in a way I feel like that is God saying "My child it is up to you to mend this, I am here to help but as much as I may want to mend your heart you have to let me." To that I say good point. I have to make an effort to say "what is done is done, and there is nothing I can do to change it." So any way back to what I was saying, I saw a photo on facebook just a few minutes ago of a beautiful rainbow coming out of storm clouds.
If you ask me, that is perfect for the situation I am in. I feel like my life for the past few months has been a storm of emotions, and not the happy ones. I am normally a positive person, but for the past month I have been stuck in the negative of everyone else has an exciting life. Everyone else is in a reltionship with someone they love that loves them back. I have been so worried about what everyone else has and felt so sorry for myself that I forgot all of my many blessings. Ok I got off topic again, I think this was the rainbow I had been searching for. Thanks to Byron I found out I got to make up my own rainbow rules.

On a happier note I have discovered myself realizing that I think some words that we consider normal are weird, today I discovered that I think Smith is a weird word.

Everyday life

I am sad to report that not too much has been going on lately. I spend my days reading, which is slowly beginning to get old. The only outside activity I have is work. I never thought that I would be wishing school would start back, but I am.

I did go to Meegan's wedding on the 12. It was so fun! Best wedding I have ever been to by far.

I went home this weekend for Father's Day. It was very relaxing except for the drive home when I thought that a rain storm was going to knock me off the road. I got home and Dad was very surprised which made me happy I didn't tell him I was going home. When I got home Mom and I went to look at the Nook. I think it would be the perfect purchase for Mom, but she decided against it. Sunday we went to church to hear the new preacher. I forget how much I really miss everyone when I haven't been around in a while. Mom and I ventured to the lake after church, the first time I have been all summer. We were there for about 5 minutes. We then went to Target to pick out the shower curtain I want to buy and then get monogrammed, they of course were sold out.

I took pictures around the house, mostly of plants so I will spare you from having to look at them.

I am now back in Auburn avoiding unpacking. I am really ready for school to start back so that I have a distraction. Plus fall is my favorite time of the year.
Sorry I am boring.

Excitement!

The past few weeks have been packed with excitement! First was Sarah's 25 birthday. I traveled to Birmingham on Friday where we celebrated with all of her friends. We went to Zoe's for dinner which is super exciting because we don't have on in Auburn and then went to Hayley, Jessica and Mickel's apartment to get ready to go see 17th floor. It was a fun night and I was very happy that I got to celebrate with her.

Saturday I went home and went to lunch with Paige. We sat at Jason's Deli for 2 hours just catching up. It had been too long since we spent any time together. After that I went home and just rested, which was quite enjoyable.

Sunday I went to church with the fam which was awesome since I rarely get to go anymore because of work. I got to see so many people that I haven't spent much time with lately because I never get to go home anymore because I have a job that consumes so many of my weekends, but hey that is the life that I have chosen so I might as well get used to it. When we got home from church Mom and I drove to Huntsville to look at cameras so that I could decide which one I wanted to buy with the money that I had saved up and the money that I was going to get for my birthday. Which of course then made me want a camera that I hadn't even thought about getting. We also went to Earth Fare which made me really excited for the one we are getting here. That night we had my birthday dinner. It was a great relaxing weekend.

Monday and Tuesday weren't overly exciting.

Wednesday was my 23rd birthday. I spent most of the day just relaxing because I hadn't been feeling well for a few days. That night the roomies and I went to niffer's for dinner and the balloon man that made me this awesome hat that was a huge attention getter as the night went on.

Thursday I went and purchased my wonderful new camera which I love.

Today I went around campus and took the first photos with my camera. Here are a few:

I am now very excited to take my first pictures with people in them. When that will be I have no clue.

That is it for now! When more exciting things happen I will let you know!

This made me really think...

"Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be, will end up good; what is not, won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times people need to fight for you. If they don’t you must just move on and realize that what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully people realize great things when then come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for."



Through out the past few weeks all I could do is think about moving on, but having to leave a part of me with someone else. Then my best friend of many years wrote this quote on my facebook wall. It sounds dumb but it made me cry. I am trying to be a mature adult and leave behind a relationship that his impacted me in such a major way that I don't really think I even knew what I was up against when it came to leaving it behind. This really hit home. I can't try to maintain anything alone. I have to find someone willing to fight just as hard for me as I am for them. I know that everyone has said it probably 150 times in the last few weeks, but for some reason hearing it in the words of someone that had probably been through it and had found a way out made all the difference in the world.

I am surrounded everyday by loving wonderful people who want nothing more than for me to live a life that fulfills me and for so long I haven't been able to see the dream that they have for me because my dreams have always been to fulfill those around me and enrich their lives in a way that makes all their dreams come true. Now I realize I get to live the rest of my life the way I want. They way that I had always hoped. Meet the man that loves me so unconditionally that it would kill them for anyone to hurt me. I will meet the person who loves me just as big and just as hard as I love them.

This all sounds very depressing I know, but to me it is not sad it is hopeful. I guess I realize that their is a whole big world out there and I am someone who can now go out and find my place in it. And I think that is about as exciting as it gets.